This morning, they took Bowen off of CPAP and replaced it with a small oxygen tube under his nose. He is still very uncomfortable a lot of the time, but he’s making progress toward staying off the ventilator. The last couple of days have seemed like a blur because not much has changed, and to be honest, it’s terrible watching Bowen struggle to breathe and show possible signs of morphine withdrawal. I’ve been journaling a lot about my faith and the things that God is teaching me through all of this. I look forward to sharing those thoughts once I get them all into words.

There were a few highlights over the past few days that helped pass the time for Sarah and I. First, we got to spend the day with our primary care nurse, Jennifer, who has become a very good friend to us in a short period of time. We consider her family now, and whether she likes it or not, she’s going to be stuck with us for a long time!

We also had the chance to meet little LIndsay who had a heart transplant here at U of M.  You can read her story at lindsaysheart.blogspot.com. She is such an inspiration.

Jennifer and Lindsay

The best thing about yesterday was our huge surprise…they let us hold Bowen! This was such an incredible feeling because we had prepared ourselves to wait for weeks. We’ve talked with so many families who haven’t had this opportunity so quickly after surgery. We were so thankful for those moments!

Sorry about the blurry photos.  Most of them aren’t planned and we just take them on our phones.:)

For todays devotion, Sarah and I read My Utmost for His Highest by Oswald Chambers.  It’s amazing how similar these words are to my thoughts and prayers over the past several days.

-“Now the Lord says, who formed Me from the womb to be His Servant . . .” Isaiah 49:5

The first thing that happens after we recognize our election by God in Christ Jesus is the destruction of our preconceived ideas, our narrow-minded thinking, and all of our other allegiances— we are turned solely into servants of God’s own purpose. The entire human race was created to glorify God and to enjoy Him forever. Sin has diverted the human race onto another course, but it has not altered God’s purpose to the slightest degree. And when we are born again we are brought into the realization of God’s great purpose for the human race, namely, that He created us for Himself. This realization of our election by God is the most joyful on earth, and we must learn to rely on this tremendous creative purpose of God. The first thing God will do is force the interests of the whole world through the channel of our hearts. The love of God, and even His very nature, is introduced into us. And we see the nature of Almighty God purely focused in

— “For God so loved the world. . . .” John 3:16

We must continually keep our soul open to the fact of God’s creative purpose, and never confuse or cloud it with our own intentions. If we do, God will have to force our intentions aside no matter how much it may hurt. A missionary is created for the purpose of being God’s servant, one in whom God is glorified. Once we realize that it is through the salvation of Jesus Christ that we are made perfectly fit for the purpose of God, we will understand why Jesus Christ is so strict and relentless in His demands. He demands absolute righteousness from His servants, because He has put into them the very nature of God.

Beware lest you forget God’s purpose for your life