It’s still sinking in that our little boy is curled up next to us, dozing off on the couch…at home. I really haven’t had much time to just sit and process everything since we’ve left the hospital. While we were still there, the nurses always referred to home as “the zoo” because they didn’t want to jinx our scheduled release. I don’t believe in jinxing things by speaking of them before they happen, but I do believe in prophecies. I should’ve seen the zoo thing coming:).
I was laughing last week at the comments about swinging golf clubs at rubbermaid boxes and stomping on laundry baskets, which were hilarious by the way. Those comments crossed my mind a few times this weekend at the zoo:).
This morning we’re taking Bowen to his first cardiologist appointment since we left the hospital. It’s going to feel a little strange driving back up to Michigan so soon after leaving. Sarah and I are looking forward to seeing all the people we love up there, but I have to be honest that I feel a little hesitant to walk him through those doors because of the lingering fear that they’ll find a reason to keep him there. I just told Sarah I wrote that and she said, “Nah, they’re not going to keep him. He looks great!”
He does look great, and we thank God every day for that. Also, yesterday morning we woke up with the realization that he hadn’t puked through the night for first time since we brought him home. That was a huge answer to our prayers. We’ve also been praying about his hyperinsulinism because it’s actually causing him more immediate difficulty than his heart. We’d appreciate all of your prayers about that as well. I probably don’t even need to ask.
I’ve had a lot a messages from people who watched Bowen’s story on ABC, asking how they can get the song “All of Me.” It’s not available at this time, but I’m recording the album that it will be featured on over the next two months. Once we get the project recorded, I’ll keep you posted as to when it will release.
For those of you who’ve been following the blog since September, you might remember baby Paislyn. If you missed the story of how we met her family, you can read it in my September 29th post. I had the chance to see Paislyn again today and she looked incredible. I wanted to post a picture, but I lost some data on my phone today, including the photo I took of her. I was so bummed about it, I wish you could see how healthy and beautiful she looked!
I wanted to share a couple of familiar verses with you in hopes that you’ll benefit by reading them side by side. I had the opportunity to speak at a church to a group of men yesterday about where we find our identity and how it affects our lives and families. As I was preparing on Saturday, I saw a parallel that I had never noticed before between two scriptures. In my message I was going to reference Psalm 115:1 in regards to the central purpose of our lives as Christians, but as I read further I began to see a connection between verses 4-8 and something Jesus said.
1 Not to us, O Lord, not to us, but to your name give glory,
for the sake of your steadfast love and your faithfulness!
2 Why should the nations say,
“Where is their God?”
3 Our God is in the heavens;
he does all that he pleases.
4 Their idols are silver and gold,
the work of human hands.
5 They have mouths, but do not speak;
eyes, but do not see.
6 They have ears, but do not hear;
noses, but do not smell.
7 They have hands, but do not feel;
feet, but do not walk;
and they do not make a sound in their throat.
8 Those who make them become like them;
so do all who trust in them.
In Matthew 6:19 Jesus says,
“Do not lay up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy and where thieves break in and steal, but lay up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust destroys and where thieves do not break in and steal. For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.
The eye is the lamp of the body. So, if your eye is healthy, your whole body will be full of light, but if your eye is bad, your whole body will be full of darkness. If then the light in you is darkness, how great is the darkness!”
Both of these passages speak about how we are transformed by what we worship. When we worship things that have no eyes we lose our spiritual vision, when we idolize things that have no ears we lose our ability to hear what’s important, and so on and so forth. On the contrary, what we lose by worshiping material possessions, we gain by worshiping the living God. Where we find our identity and what we see as valuable will either impair or repair our ability to percieve our true purpose in life.